Missing but still believing!!

                  
                  I see you always as a beautiful dove,
                  You will never be out of Jesus' sight,
                  I believe in you and see your light,
                  Leading me up in your footprints of love.
                  
                  Whenever i miss you i always think,
                  Would you like it if i won?
                  But then somehow get up with a wink,
                  I need your stregnth to lead me on.
         
                I really do miss you but still belive,
                That you are always with me wherever i am,
                Everyone still grievs,
                Especially your mam!

                           Hoped you liked it Ben
                             it was just off the top of 
                                my head but still means alot                  
                                      to me!!!!!
 
                                     love from 
                                         lauren
                           xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Dear Ben


               I haven't spoke to you in a long time but that does'nt mean i have forgotton you. you are always in my heart and every1 elses. i really miss you Ben but thinking about it i never knew you. It does'nt matter how i didn't know you because it will never change the fact that you are my little baby brother and always will be.
  Everyday i do the same old thing like going to school playing with my friends and i always think about you. my heart may not be big but you are still part of it.

               lots of hugs and kisses.

                            lauren

                xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

GOOD MORNING SWEETHEART,

HOPE YOU HAD A NICE LONG SLLEP. SOME DAYS I WAKE UP AND STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE GONE. TIME REALLY HAS FLOWN SINCE I LAST HAD YOU IN MY ARMS AND I HAVE CHANGED. I WAS NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO 2007, AND ON NEW YEARS EVE ALL I COULD THINK WAS THAT I WAS LEAVING YOU BEHIND IN 2006. BUT THAT WAS MUMMY JUST BEING SILLY, BECAUSE YOU ARE WITH ME FOREVER AND WILL NEVER BE LEFT BEHIND. GOD CALLED YOU HOME FOR A REASON THAT DAY, AND I'M SURE WHEN ITS FINALLY MY TURN I WILL FIND OUT THAT REASON. 

BY HAVING THIS SITE TO VISIT I HAVE COME TO REALISE THAT SO MANY OF OUR PRECIOUS LITTLE BABIES ARE CALLED HOME FAR TOO SOON. AND IT GETS ME THINKING THAT GOD HAS A PERFECTLY GOOD REASON TO TAKE THE MOST TREASURED AND LOVED PEOPLE AWAY FROM US.....TO DO THAT TO US HE MUST HAVE A GOOD REASON.

I HAVE MY SELFISH DAYS WHEN I FEEL ALL THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME, AND I JUST WANT MY BABY BOY BACK IN MY ARMS, AND THEN I THINK OF THE SUFFERING YOU WOULD HAVE TO ENDURE IF YOU WERE HERE. MY POOR BABY, IT SEEMS SO UNFAIR TO TAKE YOU AWAY FROM US, BUT ITS ALSO UNFAIR TO WANT YOU WITH US ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR BROKEN HEART.

I KNOW FOR SURE THAT YOU ARE BEING LOOKED AFTER BY OUR LOVED FAMILY MEMBERS THAT ARE WITH YOU IN HEAVEN, AND I FEEL WARM INSIDE KNOWING THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE. 

WHEN I CARRIED YOU FOR 9 MONTHS, I TRIED TO PATIENTLY AWAIT YOUR ARRIVAL, BUT I DON'T DO PATIENT! I WAS GETTING FED UP TOWARDS THE END. I JUST WANTED YOU IN MY ARMS. THE DAYS SEEMED TO DRAG ON FOR SO LONG AND I WONDERED IF YOU WOULD EVER COME. SOME NIGHTS WERE AGONISING WONDERING WHEN YOU WOULD FINALLY MAKE AN APPEARENCE. AND EVERY NIGHT I LAY IN BED.....I STILL HAVE TO ENDURE THAT AWFUL FEELING OF WAITING. ONLY THE FEELING IS TEN TIMES WORSE AS I KNOW I DON'T HAVE TO WAIT DAYS OR WEEKS, I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL I TAKE MY LAST BREATH. IT HURTS SO MUCH. I JUST WANT YOU BACK HOME. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER BUTTON NOSE.

MUMMY XXX

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